FORGIVENESS

"Its easy to forgive but not to forget"

if you did a mistake from others, it is compulsory to seek forgiveness from him. It was said, whenever you're seeking for forgiveness you should tell the person your mistakes towards him even as minute as dust.



Me: Sorry, aku banyak buat salah kat kau =(
Him: Xpe, ok je. Aku maafkan

(Lol. cube try cakap kesalahan in detail. cube try ni)

Me: Sorry, aku ngata kko semalam, kutuk ko kaw2 aritu.. heeee... semlam aku calarkan kereta kau...
Him: Huh? xde maaf bagimu.

Normal. Nasib la, die nak maafkan ko ke x...
yang penting, ko dah mintak maaaf, sot, let allah do the rest to lenient him.

But, for sure, it is not easy to forget one mistake. It needs time to heal and cure the wound. because, it will still left the scar...

sorry.

The Thought

The thought of being useless had always come across my mind. Especially when it comes to study.

Ever since I pursued my study, I've experienced through a damn whole lots of obstacles which caused the feeling of sitting on, sometimes falling down.. Yes, life is a circle. but how to break the circle? ... Clueless.

"When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget"




Kalaupun aku merasa diri ini bodoh dan x berguna, alangkaah baik nya jika ade yang datang dan mengatakan:

"tak, kau x bodoh, cuma kadang2, memang kita buat silap. Its ok, berubah ke arah yang lebih baik tu, x pernah terlewat"



ye, itu saya.

So, there are few tips to break the circle of being clueless how beautiful this life actually.

1. Be willing to let yourself fall

- banyak buku pasal ni, BERANI GAGAL. yup,ramai yang x mahu malah paranoid dengan perkataan gagal ni. ME TOO, undeniable. tapi kalau jatuh gagal sesekali xpelah, jangan jadikan kegagalan tu penanda aras kebodohan kita, but spin it to be a part of your motivation to achieve more. Rephrase kegagalan kepada MOTIVASI.

2. Giving excuses?

Part ni, aku mmg terer. kelentong sane, kelentong sini. sebab nak hidup kan? ak selamatkan diri. tapi sebenarnya, perangai memberi ALASAN memakan diri. dan buat orang x percaya kat kita, kan? Jujur itu lebih baik.

3. Do you actually have the will to succeed?

Ahha, hidup kalau xde matlamat, memang zero income, zero outcome. Set matlamata dan impian, tampal kat dahi. bawak hari2. Kompom hidup x menyeleweng.


Paling senang, kalau malas juga, aku bagi nih.



pandai2 la fikir

Tanggungjawab.

Jenuh nak pikir tajuk ape untuk entri yang berapa nak first ni.

Tanggungjawab. berkenaan TANGGUNGJAWAB sebagai anak, sebagai pelajar, sebagai pekerja.. dan yang paling penting, sebagai HAMBA.

Alhamdulillah, tanggungjawab sebagai pelajar Ms., hampir selesai. Correction dengan SV sudah usai. Hanya nak hantar sekali je lagi, dan kemudian, submit di fakulti. Kemudian VIVA.. Correction..bla3... bosan.

Sekarang ni, have been hired as Research Assistant (RA). Tapi most of the works, mainly on preparing reports, updating list of chemicals, quoting prices for chemicals and instruments..Such a lame works. But then, sebab TANGGUNGJAWAB, so, kenelah amanah.. Kadang2, buat kerja ibarat melepas batuk di tangga.. Contohnya:

Boss : Nanti jangan lupa quote harga servis untuk alat nih
Aku : Ok.

(Masuk lab... bual2.. jimba2...)

Jam 4.00 petang.. baru nak quote harga

Boss : Cemana? ok x?
Aku : Ok jer.

(email.. email.. email.. pada supplier)
(2 minggu sudah)

Boss : Cemana?
Aku : Entah, die senyap je.
Boss : Xpelah. Kalau senyap.. Kite cari yang lain.
Aku : Ok

(email.. email.. email

Aku : Boss, harganya 10K
Boss : Xpeah, xjadik.


Hahaha.. =(

Kadang2 rase, tanggungjawab yang diberi berat, bila dah buat, survey2 harga.. xjadi. xpelah, tu namanya jalankan tanggungjawab..

Ade satu lagi, ok. bos bayar kerja.. untuk 8 pagi masuk kerja, balik pukul 5 petang.

kite masuk kerja, 830++, tengahari keluar pukul 12 masuk kerja 1430. Balik 1730. camane tu? gaji tiap2 bulan berkat x?

Ni ayah aku dan member jambu yang tegur. Duduk terfikir. Teruk la diri ni.





Sedih. jadi, UBAH

Hari Lahir Seberapa berat erti hari lahir itu? Oh, tahun ni dah 25 dah. Syukur, masih bernafas di bumi Allah.. Dielilingi sahabat sahabat yang baik.. =) mereka yang baik2 Jambu dalam lab. hahaha Terima kasih sebab hadiah, dan belanja makan. thanks.

assalamualaikum, cikgu athirah...

ada sapa2 yang berminat untuk menghantar anak ke kelas saya? sila hubungi ya...

crocs shoes!

haha...nak dijadikan cerita, semalam, pas makan2 kitorang sefamily gi kedai crocs kat taman seri aman..mum bought me a crocs shoe. bubble gum's colour..love em..




thanks ibu..

like this song damn much!

fireflies-owl city

setel semua..

alhamdulillah..hari ini leh tarik nafas lega..
alhamdulillah sangat2...

progress report sudah berjaya dihantar pada pagi tai yang tak berape awallah.. kemudian, mengemudi kaki ke library tepat pukul doblas untuk wat aeseimen falsafah lak. alhamdulillah dapat siapkan pukil 3.30...kul 5.30 submit mase kelas..rupe2 nye, ramai lagi yang xhantar..kitorang je buat...sayo kangkung betollah budak2 ni... huh..

part yang paling best...malam ni leh TIDO dengan aman!! haha...esok nak bangun awal hantar member gi epot..nak gi manentah budak tu..mengarut je lebey...

masa untuk menjadi ulat buku...~

haha...this was snapped by..ntah sape..tapi tu spek qila..haha

progress report vS nafsu ber'fesbuk'

harini merupakan hari yang agak janggal.alhamdulillah, saya dah get on track semula setelah diberi catalyst pemangkin diri dari org2 disekeliling yang saya sangat sayangi dan hargai.

pukul 12 tepat tenghari tadi supervisor telah menelepon lab dan we had some sort of conv. due to the fundamental science conference by the end of june this year. the abstract for this conference shall be submit by the end of this march. oh! this is worst..i'm totally unprepared because there's not much progress that i've been done for this project.

so, need to burn the midnight oil lah! hahah...saya sedang berlaku tidak jujur terhadap diri sendiri..haha..sambil menulis progress report sambil mngkomen2 fesbuk...huh..kenapelah ade yang mencipta fesbuk nih...kan dah banyak tergendalakan kerja2 ku...blog pun same ajelah...

haha, ni dah already 1.15 a.m...still not weaken by the lullabies song in the head yang memanggil2 katil untuk bersama mengulit mimpi2 atau nightmare malam ni..haha..kene stay back til 3 a.m. or at least sampai yakin dah ok progress reportnya..

tomorrow...7.45 a.m. go to the lab..

maafkan dirinya dan diriku...

dah masuk haribulan lain dah..inilah hari terakhir gaduh. sorry for all the bad things that i told you..saya mintak maaf sebab xfaham awak..saya mementingkan diri sendiri..=(

oh, i'm sorry...

terima kasih

thanks, raihan...

maulidurrasul

selamat menyambut maulidurrasul~

no soul..

dah tensyen...

sintesiss xjadi...
blurr....


nak pack barang..go home..

~ehe...

ahahaha..yesterday, someone had misreload me for rm30.00..gile kan..hahaha..tapi best..haha

aku rase bodoh berdouble2!

ya allah, how i wish not to further study....

life is so hard and i think i am not able to cope with it..ya allah, the tears is running as if my life has ruin. ya allah.. give me the strength to keep still in this path.

sakitnye jiwa aku ni...i'm totally lost with everything that happen for this exactly two months. i really want to give up right now. i just think that i had made a wrong decision to continue study. am i making harsh decision? ya allah..

~totally happy=heavenly soul~

i am totally happy today because:

1. i've got my first salary
2. i've put an end for all those sort of emotional problems.
3. i've gave out my hand-made cocktail puddings for all my lab-mate.
4. i just love all the people around me!

hehe.. but after all, i am hoping for a better tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and consequences days..

and today, i am synthesizing 2,3,4-trihydroxyacetophenone with 4-hydroxybenzaldehyde by using borontrifluoride etherate as the catalyst. i am hoping to get a good result from this method and lesser unwanted side-product. and my supervisor had taught me the better way to recrystallize the chalcone compared with my own procedure. it's ok..i'm still learning..yeahh, i'm still learning.

...dari novel genetics pearl...

a was touched with these few baits...

"life has to go on. the day came. the days went. every second without fail. man became the hunter of time. they chased time that would never come back. they yearned for the time that had gone by. some even become the slaves of time. and they awaited in anticipation for the days that would come. after all, man was never satisfied for what he has...."

esok keleja lah...

huhu..

bekerja..belajar..bekerja..belajar...

working got much more pressure and distress compared with study (degree level). huhu...

esok dah start kerja. a loads of work have to get done. malasnyer!! what is the best purification techniques for chalcone?????

i'm not the type of giving-up person, but since the last two months worked as the research assistant, i felt a lot of pressure. besides having problems with the synthesizing method, i also didn't have a lots of friend to share the feeling of being lonely! often, i tried to make myself happy by hanging up with some sort of friends and old-hostel-mate or ex-classmate, but still my level of happy emotions were still under warning degree. huhu...my soul is not really happy.

i am very much sure, if my emotions is going up to stabilized, i won't have the eagerness to go home every singles weekend = run away from the work-environment. i really need to undergo psychological treatment so that i can lead a merely happy life even though tons of work were bulging me.

open house+accident!

Yesterday was an absolutely buziestttt day (19th syawal). my family held an open house day for the Hospital Pontian's and Kulai's staffs. variety of foods were served such as laksa johor, keli masak pecal, ayam masak merah, sayur pisang and the dessert was must-and-only-be puding koktail (nyummy2..). hehe..aku dah pancit sangat2 semalam...penat gile!

but..

early that morning, my little brother had an accident. that 13 years old boy was motorcycling (better call it as racing ) and unfortunately he fall into a hole and hurt his head and back. served him right because he did not help my parents to manage the household chores. 14 stitches on the hard headed boy! forgot to take his picture so that i can put the quarter-bald-head-boy pic here. biar die tahu malu..hahaha..

ok la..today, we are going to Kluang for a walimatul urus ceremony.. uncle Rahimin's daughter.